Wednesday 21 January 2009

My Day

Today was a Wednesday, and Wednesdays are usually pretty good :)

I met RB at co-op, and walked pleasantly to school. We had a lil' rave on the way lol which was pretty funny, and I tried to ignore the fact that I could feel my hair getting messy in the wind every minute!

First lesson was english, which was pretty normal, then I had maths which also passed without much excitement. At break I had crisps and wandered the corridors with MF as usual , before heading down to music when the bell went. Our music timetable has now all changed as we are doing all listening lessons except one performing once a fortnight which really sucks - listening is the worst aspect of music! But then we are behind with it, so it is necessary that we catch up with that before practising performing more.... However, this music lesson we did some practical stuff - we had the African drums out to do some work on AOS4 (Area Of Study 4) which is African and Indian music. We basically did a whole class performance with the drums and things which was cool, except then we went round having to do solo improvisation. I hated that. Everyone was watching me and I'd just end up going out of time or something :/

Lesson four was biology and we did some work about growth - we had to put in order cards with pictures of different aged people on them, and do a table of head size versus body size, which was pretty interesting. In the first picture, which was of a partially developed fetus, the head was the same size as the body. Then we measured ourselves, and I was 158cm which I am quite proud of - my ambition in life is to be 165cm lol! And I have very little time left in which to grow. It was cool because CR was 24cm taller than me which amused us both a little! On the chart I was just above the 25th percentile, meaning that 75% of girls of my age in the UK are taller than me, but at least I was in the normal range lol!

Last lesson I had a chemistry test, which I'm sure I've failed! No-one knows what's going on with this module - it's one of the ones exclusively for people doing separate science and is, as a result of that and our chemistry teacher's delusion that we are all mini-Einsteins, extremely confusing! CR and I were going to revise at lunch but I got distracted helping MF with her maths homework (for the next lesson, naturally :P) and CR got distracted too and didn't even make it to the library! I made it there but didn't even get out my revision guide! However, some answers were common sense like balancing equations so I think I probably got at least a B/C....

Since I've been home I've done homework (maths, english, german and music) and listened to Suzanne Vega's 'The Queen and The Soldier' over and over again - the melody is beautiful, subtle and has so many layers of sound (different instruments subtly fading in and out), and the lyrics are amazing - so insightful and interesting! Amazing! I wish I could write songs half as well as her - I mean, wow!

A good quote to end on is from my 'Book of Childrens' letters to God':
"Dear God,
I think that the stapler is your greatest invention
Ruth M (7)"

^ fantastic!

Tuesday 20 January 2009

Deary me!

Oh dear - I am rather a large failure at this blogging thing - haven't posted anything for almost two months now! Maybe because nothing in my life has changed particularly, and no-one (except people who know everything about me already hehe!) reads it anyway...

Recently I've been struggling again with faith - I know that God will use me at the right time and in the right way, but it's all too easy to lose heart when things don't go your way. I still don't know my purpose, and my talents seem to be fading all the time I'm not using them. However, I know that this will purely be psychological, particularly with singing as my main downfall with that is my confidence, and the longer I wonder whether I can actually sing or not, the more my confidence levels dwindle...

I wanted to come back to this blog and type about all the exciting twists and turns my journey with God (cheesy but true!) has taken, but I just seem to be standing still. I'm going to persevere, and I just really, really hope that I don't give up. I know I won't becasuse, while I feel a little distant from God right now, I know that without him my life would have so much less purpose and drive. I just want God at the centre again.....